Well, now I'm going to have to struggle with irrational anger until the semester ends, since THAT is the only thing that is going to be able to motivate me to get my shit done.

FUCK!

People lie every day, it's irksome and pointless. It is especially stupid when my dad lies, since it is so god-damned evident.

So, brother, if you happen to talk to Dad, poke around the issue of not coming up after all. He told me he doesn't feel up to it, which may very well be true to an extent. But I'm damn sure that he doesn't want to go because it upsets Mom so much. Since I'm too [insert any emotion here], I can't be bothered to discuss it at all. So I don't care beyond the point of being pissed/disappointed, but if you're a good brother, you'll find out why, and report your findings to me. (Thanks.)


Now I am going to go back out and buy a fucking pack of Heineken Dark, since this pack of Amberbock is defective or something. It tastes like someone dumped a Corona in it.





Fuck.

OK, I don't know who the hell actually wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to the gym. My nose is SO sensitive this early in the morning that the gym smells like hundreds of different asses and gallons of sweat. I think I'll continue to go later on in the evening, despite how difficult it has been to get my ass in gear that late in the day. But it's healthier to go about it in the morning...

Writing and I have not been getting along. Considering how I've been pumping out papers that I despise, I'm not really surprised I've stopped thinking of shit to complain about since, you know, I despise that too. Live Journal has really slowed down this year, it seems. Fewer people on my friends list are updating, and if they do, it is infrequent and concise. Certain communities are dead over the weekend, because people apparently have lives over the weekend now (or just pretend to, so they don't post). It stinks, because for me, Live Journal had evolved from being an outlet for me to express myself to a community-oriented website to share knowledge and learn about the intimate lives of other people without having to physically be present.

Maybe I am not evolving as a person as rapidly, so there isn't as much to write about.

Maybe I just don't want to share anything anymore because I'm not realizing positive changes within myself.

Maybe I am growing out of writing.

Maybe I am in denial about my existence.

Frequently, I feel frustrated that I can't get HBC to work for me. If I'm on the pill, I am a MACHINE and I get everything done ahead of time, and feel OK being more emotional. Without it, I seem to have difficulty focusing on my tasks, and my libido vanishes. Those pills are murder, and I am damn sure they cause more problems for me than the benefit of being detail-oriented is worth. It shouldn't have to be that sex = baby if you don't use condoms or HBC. Yet, NO ONE will let me get my tubes tied. OH YEAH, I'm too young. Ugh. You break down one door only to get stuck in front of another. Wicked souls. If I was up for playing the pretend game, I would pretend I wanted to get a sex change. Maybe then... But why isn't it acceptable now? People do change, I'll grant you that, but the whole babby thing is just not for me. It never will be, because there is no fucking reason to procreate at any point in time with anyone when I question my background. Additionally, I'm extremely selfish, and when I give my time and energy away, it should go to people that are already here, struggling with their own lives, than a brand-new mouth that WON'T SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT BOO BERRY CEREAL WHEN IT IS FUCKING APRIL.

Ugh.

I like music. In a world of shock, disappointment, frustration, and sadness, music is the only thing to cling to when you just want to feel at ease.




^ And that. That also = peace. >:]

1. I'm pretty sure that girls that consistently date jerks are just unable to land "normal" nice guys. The only good thing about jerks = the sex and their taste in literature. I feel really bad for the ladies that continuously date losers like that, but I made that mistake and it didn't do much good for me. Lesson learned.

2. One of the best things about living with cats is when you catch a fat one cleaning itself. If you were to stick your tongue out and make low, closed-mouth grunting noises right after plopping down next to fat cleaning cat, you would, with no doubt, provoke the cat to make a stupid face. Usually with Squee, this face involves the eyes looking different directions with a pink tongue poking out.

3. Simply Apple = Mega Poo, BUT, it tastes SO much better than regular apple juice that I will happily pay the exorbitant three dollar price tag for a half gallon jug.

I just got 23 kiwi fruits for three dollars!

OH GOD, I AM DYING!!!!!!

*vomits profusely*

NOOOOOOOOO!

It finally happened.

Eating raw cookie dough has finally made me sick enough to puke everywhere.

WAY TO GO! +5 exp!

OK. From now on, when someone acts pretentious around me, I'll be delivering a swift kick to the ass, a giant glob of mucous to the face, or a big, "Fuck you, why are you acting like such a pretentious jackass?" to the ear holes.

>_< I'm going to go to jail for this. Fuck!

Like the antisocial piece of crap I am, I've been using Omegle for the past few days in hopes of gaining more insight on the way others in different countries live their lives. I've not been disappointed, but here are the most important things I've learned:

- Korean men go "WAO! Do you like DICK?!"
- The USA has much cheaper fuel, produce, and cosmetics than pretty much every other country in the world. BE THANKFUL. Poor suckers pay way over a dollar a liter (if you didn't know, one gallon is over 3.75 liters)
- Almost all people will respond to "Yellow!" with "Blue!"
- Indians say "Ok, Ok" and "Good, good" just like they do in person.
- Chinese people are pretty cool and love to try to improve their English
- 4chan's presence is EXTREMELY strong on the Omegle service
- Everyone loves weed
- No one on earth except the shitty Americans uses AIM. Seriously. No one. Not one person. Even most Americans seem to use MSN.


:P And I type like a man, apparently. It's largely due to coherence, proper punctuation and lack of shorthand. That speaks volumes about the American females that go ":) hi hun" instead of saying "Hello."

I found a brown pipe-cleaner spider in the sand today while I was taking a walk.

I've named him Pico.

This month is off to a good start!

I'm pissed off and confused. Must be very tired.

On the bright side, my cat just cleaned my hand, so I feel very fortunate.

Did anyone else ever play this as a kid? I won't buy the new DS or Wii games (this franchise is now owned by Ubisoft) because someone is going to tease me *coughGLENNcoughcough*, but I have really fond memories of the game. :] Particularly when the weather begins cooling down.

It's mega cheap, so I guess I'm going to buy Catz 5 and waste my time playing it for the nostalgia factor (kind of like Sims before it got all crazy) since I'm having a hard time with the game I'm currently playing.

ALSO... What is wrong with the majority of female gamers? They're really rude and either tend to be the Weeaboo type or... Super-douched bro-hoes? I don't get it. Where's the love, ladies?

Promote the love for all games!

\m/ -.^ \m/ <3

People are inherently stupid. And they spout off the shitty misinformation they overheard whilst stuffing their face full of pot pies and other frozen food dinners in front of the television.

If I am WRONG, you say something! Particularly in regard to science + useful information that has relevance to the way we live out lives.

Wow, you're not a very good eBay-er if this statement applies to you:

"disadvantage of eBay shopping-> the wait and the hope that you weren't scammed:S"

Polution In China - Ghastly.



D:

Spinach - can only eat this cooked, canned, or on a sandwich

Zucchini - I despise this and will not eat it, period

Sweet peppers - only good raw and in moderation, cannot eat it in stir-fried dishes

Artichokes - :,[

Romaine lettuce - Absolutely despise the dirty taste of this stuff

Broccoli - I actually love broccoli, the stem part moreso than the florette, but GAS FOR DAYS. I can only imagine combining this with garlic and cheese...



Pears - WHO THE FUCK EATS THIS GRITTY ASS FRUIT?

Dragon fruit - Has no flavor, though the seeds are nice to crunch

Yellow kiwi - No flavor

Horned melons - Fuck these. Nasty.

Rambutans - Wannabe lychees

Jackfruit - Why are these so big? I would love them but I am afraid of them...

Watermelon cultivated outside of the south - if you don't know what I'm talking about and you live on the west coast, or anywhere else in the world where your melons suck, you have never had the best watermelons ever.

Heading to the gym early tonight due to frustration @ paypal troubles.

The other night I found a purse filled with money in the Winco parking lot, and Glenn made me take it in to the lost and found.

This is the second time I have found a substantial amount of money in a parking lot at night. Why can't I just keep itttt...

If you don't like ketchup, I don't like you, but this is my favorite ketchup. ;] It's kosher for Pesach, so it doesn't have corn syrup. Yum!